thank you for not abandoning me in the chaos. will you ever know how being alone scares me, even though it's all i seem to strive for.

relapse

1. to fall or slide back into a former state.

2. to regress after partial recovery from illness.

3. to slide back into bad ways; backslide.

i don't want to go back there.

you know, where it was dark and wired. like electricity and split personalities and cake mix and vomit and deep black hunger.

i especially don't want to go back there ^^ but the thing is...i

x xx